Mind & Body

Sunday, 15 February 2015

I lost my best friend.

We have all lost something in our lives. Family,Children, Pets......
No matter the situation the amount of anguish you go through is bout the same. It's hard loosing something/someone you love.

We are always told that we save animals lives all the time by adopting them. I have always thought it was the other way around. It's our animals that save us.

I have sat here depressed about my life and the way things were going for the past a couple months. As you can tell I haven't been active blogging. I'm not going to lie its been pretty hard. Thank goodness for Netflix. I finally noticed that my cat  (Who I consider one of my children) was sick. He lost weight fast and didn't move.

We finally decided that we needed to take him to the vet. Being optimistic I thought that it could be his teeth a he wasn't eating.

So there all three of us sat in the vet office. his heart and temperature were fine. When she felt his stomach I could see the grim news in her eyes. Our precious baby had cancer in his spleen. I thin I was in shock. I mean I thought it was going to be his teeth!!

It was so advance and you could see the pain in my precious babies eyes. It all happened so fast, I felt his last breath. A wave of memories came over me and I didn't want to leave. I wanted to pick him up and cradle him. My gentle giant.

This is the first time that I had to deal with a loss like that. I cannot have children, I substituted animals for children. I love animals so much they are so innocent and all they need and want is love.

Everything is still fresh, but i have been asking myself. Will this pain go away? How can I do this again with my 2 dogs and other 2 cats? Is having pets worth it?

I need to cope. I have found some ways to help.
I'm having him cremated. The reason is I had heard that when pets pass they are put into a freezer and disposed of at a dump. I didn't want that. My cat gave me a good life he is worth paying for a dignified burial. When I pass I would like my animals to be put with me and my fiance.

I'm going to have a professional portrait done of him. I'm going to frame it and hang it when I am ready.

I am going to hold an auction and online fundraiser in his name to be donated to a local charity that helps low-income people with vet bills.  He would want that.

I had made a video last year and i havent been able to bring myself to watching it but wanted to share. The cat that passed his name is YOUZ.



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