We have all lost something in our lives. Family,Children, Pets......
No matter the situation the amount of anguish you go through is bout the same. It's hard loosing something/someone you love.
We are always told that we save animals lives all the time by adopting them. I have always thought it was the other way around. It's our animals that save us.
I have sat here depressed about my life and the way things were going for the past a couple months. As you can tell I haven't been active blogging. I'm not going to lie its been pretty hard. Thank goodness for Netflix. I finally noticed that my cat (Who I consider one of my children) was sick. He lost weight fast and didn't move.
We finally decided that we needed to take him to the vet. Being optimistic I thought that it could be his teeth a he wasn't eating.
So there all three of us sat in the vet office. his heart and temperature were fine. When she felt his stomach I could see the grim news in her eyes. Our precious baby had cancer in his spleen. I thin I was in shock. I mean I thought it was going to be his teeth!!
It was so advance and you could see the pain in my precious babies eyes. It all happened so fast, I felt his last breath. A wave of memories came over me and I didn't want to leave. I wanted to pick him up and cradle him. My gentle giant.
This is the first time that I had to deal with a loss like that. I cannot have children, I substituted animals for children. I love animals so much they are so innocent and all they need and want is love.
Everything is still fresh, but i have been asking myself. Will this pain go away? How can I do this again with my 2 dogs and other 2 cats? Is having pets worth it?
I need to cope. I have found some ways to help.
I'm having him cremated. The reason is I had heard that when pets pass they are put into a freezer and disposed of at a dump. I didn't want that. My cat gave me a good life he is worth paying for a dignified burial. When I pass I would like my animals to be put with me and my fiance.
I'm going to have a professional portrait done of him. I'm going to frame it and hang it when I am ready.
I am going to hold an auction and online fundraiser in his name to be donated to a local charity that helps low-income people with vet bills. He would want that.
I had made a video last year and i havent been able to bring myself to watching it but wanted to share. The cat that passed his name is YOUZ.